The Iliad of my life starts
at three in the morning.
Without bra, without makeup,
without food, without water.
Without love,
I wouldn't make it on the
Iliad of my life. I wouldn't
make it past the door, past
the other door, past the stairs,
past the bathroom.
The Iliad of my life starts
when he says, "Hello." It's
timid and beautiful, and cliché
love poems run to the forefront
of my mind, dashing, pushing,
clawing to the Iliad of my life.
Every detail,
like glue or sharpies,
is pressed to my nose.
At three in the morning
I wonder if tomorrow I'll know
the answers.
I wonder if I'll remember my
pre-programmed words and
smile and mascara - "Dark lashes
are a blessing," they say.
Well, I wanna be blessed with
love, I say.
I wanna be blessed with
truth, I say.
I wanna be blessed, be blessed,
be blessed with smarts,
I say.
By the time I was nineteen, I was dangerously
in love. Succulents sat on my windowsill,
a sign of hate explained earnestly. I was
perturbed by screaming voices, silent hills. And
He showed me how to grab life because
I'd never been allowed to grab it before.
His words, letters printed on the page
of my dreams, a finger scrolling away.
I show him how to feel rage,
to let go of his inhibitions, expressway only.
I grab his cane and hold it up,
he shows me his collection of stories, bad-lucked.
If he were to abandon me at this
point, I'm sure love would take my sanity,
sip it up as a diss, licking, hiss.
Iron tastes good in my mouth, profaniti
We move like dancing beats,
like bad-lucked stories shoved into
laundry pile heaps.
We trust like strangers, easily;
smiling in pictures taken
on a day when the river runs funny.
I'm in love, I'm in love /
There's no denying my heart's
singing, its midnight /
preambles or murmurs.
He's in love, in love /
I think. He's in love with
me - I think - my heart murmurs, a
wicked twist, knifed.
Where did my child go?
The one stuffed into my neck?
A bump, line, wrinkled /
flawed by my mother?
Where did my teen years go? My /
infancy, delicately laced,
my mother shows me how to
pack it up and ship it off.
Did she learn how to ship
hers off too? When will it /
return, as a gift, raw and un-
-cooked, saturated with strange blood?
That's how women work - we martyr
ourselves for evil men, pack our-
-selves away with fake lea
I never thought I’d see him again
Hanging from that tree, he smiles,
A rope beneath his armpits, a cape
from his toes. A rainfall in his eyes
Like the ones I used to know. Deliciously
expired. Ripe and rotten at the same time.
I’m giddy.
Pond's cold cream, take it and
wipe away the clumpy, seven-hour
mascara from your eyelashes, dark
or light, brushing against the top
of your brow bone - you wash the
night away.
I can no longer see you
Like I used to, Atlanta skies,
burning bright with music,
flies, food - I can smell everything
as if I were there again
But I can not see you the same
Cannot see your face, your blue eyes
I can't remember what you looked like that night,
Maybe I'm just growing old
I said that three years ago
And now I'm older, blinder than before
The Iliad of my life starts
at three in the morning.
Without bra, without makeup,
without food, without water.
Without love,
I wouldn't make it on the
Iliad of my life. I wouldn't
make it past the door, past
the other door, past the stairs,
past the bathroom.
The Iliad of my life starts
when he says, "Hello." It's
timid and beautiful, and cliché
love poems run to the forefront
of my mind, dashing, pushing,
clawing to the Iliad of my life.
Every detail,
like glue or sharpies,
is pressed to my nose.
At three in the morning
I wonder if tomorrow I'll know
the answers.
I wonder if I'll remember my
pre-programmed words and
smile and mascara - "Dark lashes
are a blessing," they say.
Well, I wanna be blessed with
love, I say.
I wanna be blessed with
truth, I say.
I wanna be blessed, be blessed,
be blessed with smarts,
I say.
By the time I was nineteen, I was dangerously
in love. Succulents sat on my windowsill,
a sign of hate explained earnestly. I was
perturbed by screaming voices, silent hills. And
He showed me how to grab life because
I'd never been allowed to grab it before.
His words, letters printed on the page
of my dreams, a finger scrolling away.
I show him how to feel rage,
to let go of his inhibitions, expressway only.
I grab his cane and hold it up,
he shows me his collection of stories, bad-lucked.
If he were to abandon me at this
point, I'm sure love would take my sanity,
sip it up as a diss, licking, hiss.
Iron tastes good in my mouth, profaniti
We move like dancing beats,
like bad-lucked stories shoved into
laundry pile heaps.
We trust like strangers, easily;
smiling in pictures taken
on a day when the river runs funny.
I'm in love, I'm in love /
There's no denying my heart's
singing, its midnight /
preambles or murmurs.
He's in love, in love /
I think. He's in love with
me - I think - my heart murmurs, a
wicked twist, knifed.
Where did my child go?
The one stuffed into my neck?
A bump, line, wrinkled /
flawed by my mother?
Where did my teen years go? My /
infancy, delicately laced,
my mother shows me how to
pack it up and ship it off.
Did she learn how to ship
hers off too? When will it /
return, as a gift, raw and un-
-cooked, saturated with strange blood?
That's how women work - we martyr
ourselves for evil men, pack our-
-selves away with fake lea
I never thought I’d see him again
Hanging from that tree, he smiles,
A rope beneath his armpits, a cape
from his toes. A rainfall in his eyes
Like the ones I used to know. Deliciously
expired. Ripe and rotten at the same time.
I’m giddy.
Pond's cold cream, take it and
wipe away the clumpy, seven-hour
mascara from your eyelashes, dark
or light, brushing against the top
of your brow bone - you wash the
night away.